Ten.Three Hundred & Ninety-Two

1. 4:30, full moon, quiet house. 

2. I shouldn't check my phone first thing in the morning but I do and today, specifically I am bothered. But this is not about me. I mean, it is, in a way. And it's hard not to take it personally. But I'd be lying if I said that I didn't see it coming. 

3. Make a list.

4. I keep my head wrap on even after they get here because, whatever, I am cleaning and sweating and I don’t want to waste a good Afro puff. 

5. One of the women used to live in Danville which is right near the other places we are looking to settle to. Synchronicity. I needed to be reminded, at this very moment, that not matter what we’re moving to California.  

6. Burger and fries and a ginger ale out on the patio. Hunger. 

7. They finally get us in the pool. She and I wade in the water and chat and they splash us in the face. It’s almost too chilly but the water feels good.  

8. I need the fresh air.  

9. And then I finally feel some peace. 

10. Pizza and Collusion and chats with neighbors in the driveway. Being okay with what is. Realizing that I need to do things like buy school clothes and order school supplies. Realizing that we have to keep on living.